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25 August 2008 @ 12:21 pm
Here I am all moved in to my new apartment, and I finally have internet again. Lately I haven't been doing much except watching movies and House with Dustin, but I have had a few classes already. Nothing too exciting, but I'm supposed to go to a Photoshop class later on today.

We started renting House DVDs from NetFlix, since neither one of us had seen all of the first three seasons. I've got to say, I'm genuinely hooked now. Even the formulaic episodes don't bother me, because the writers seem to know just how to keep me interested in all this medical stuff that I previously didn't care about. However, I think that, if I could, I would just cut out all of that and leave nothing but character development to sit there and drool over. Alas, that would probably make the show much less enjoyable for other people, so I'm fine with it. Besides, if they progress the characters too quickly, it probably would feel too rushed.

I wasn't a huge fan of Wilson when I first started watching the series, but I have to say he's grown on me. It didn't really help that he ditched House when he worked so hard to get those Monster Truck tickets, but I think now that I understand their relationship more, I've grown to like Wilson. I've still got a lot of House left to watch (I'm only currently on the 4th disk of the first season, though I've watched most of the 4th season) so that could change again, but whatever.

Our apartment is kind of bare at the moment, though our living room is filled with a couple dozen video game and Code Geass posters. It's so nerdy, though it's kind of sad that we haven't had anyone to show it off to yet. My room is huge, and I haven't gotten around to decorating yet, so it looks really empty. I get my own bathroom though, which I thoroughly enjoy after sharing one bathroom with three/four other people for almost my entire life. We've got 7 systems set up including Wii, GameCube, N64, Super Nintendo, NES, Sega Genesis, and PS2. It's quite obviously a gamer's apartment, though if you look at just the bedrooms I don't think anyone could observe that.

Well, it's time to catch up on all that internet that I missed out on, and perhaps work on some Chinese homework while I'm at it.
I've decided to start a little thing where I I'm able to post up things that I enjoy or really dislike and sort of review them. Since I'm not making much progress on this journal, I figure if I can talk about things and review them, I would be more inclined to post. Since only like three or four people read this journal anyway, it won't make much of a difference, but I think writing like this is good practice. The reviews will likely be Anime/Manga/Video Game-related, but I may occasionally do a movie, product, or service if they stand out enough.

My first review is probably my newest and most favorite "obsession", partially because it's quality entertainment and doesn't cost anything. If you know me well enough, you know that I love the retro video games I grew up with. We've always had a console around, whether it was the NES or Genesis or SNES. When I watch reviews of old games, I get nostalgia for them even if I had never played them myself. The Angry Video Game Nerd is a little different from all that, but I enjoy it just as much, if not more.

"The Angry Video Game Nerd" is a character in a series of videos portrayed by James Rolfe, an amateur filmmaker. Chances are, if you're into gaming, you've probably at least heard of him in passing. He essentially plays old games of the 1980s-1990s that have some notably bad gameplay or other features, and comically reviews them in an over-the-top manner. He's foul-mouthed, drinks beer excessively, wears glasses and a white collared shirt with pens in the pocket, and makes a few too many fecal jokes, but he knows his video games.

Some people criticize him for his humor being too over the top, but I think that's part of the charm of his character. He pulls it off well, and without it I don't think the videos would be nearly as funny. There's probably only one thing I don't like about the videos, and that's when his friend comes in as some even more over-the-top annoying character. I don't think we're supposed to like him, but it's hard for me to enjoy the videos as much when he's around. He does a good job for what he does, but maybe it if were toned down just a tad it wouldn't be so bad.

Something that started out as a small experiment blew up in a way that only the internet can cause. He now has millions of fans around the world, and makes it a point never to ignore them (unlike some internet phenomena who get big heads and forget who got them there). He's a perfect example of how anyone with a good idea and a little work can make something that attracts the attention of millions. He's got my support, and I hope to see him get even more as time goes on.

If you're interested in this series of videos, you can check them out here. If you're going to start watching, I recommend picking something you might be interested in to first see if you like it, and then start from the earlier videos and make your way up. He often mentions previous videos later on, so it's easier to get the references if you watch them in order. Simon's Quest isn't a very good example of his work, though, so you don't have to start there.
One could argue that it is naive to consider oneself much more intelligent than most of the world, since it is rare that anyone has met most of the people in this world. However, with this new fangled technology called the internet, people can get a glimpse of what they're missing by witnessing people's actions as they surf the internet. I'm not talking about hacking or anything like that, just people's general comments on various subjects, posted for the world to see. I'm actually inclined to think that there are more stupid people on the internet than in the world, because, as Penny Arcade so wonderfully put it, "Normal person + Anonymity = HURRR". Now, before I offend anyone, I'm not talking about genuinely retarded people, or those with proven learning disorders. The people I'm referring to are those who have a mind but refuse to use it, and those who act and do not observe. I can also include extremely prejudiced people, as their ignorance is not excusable 99% of the time.

We all have had that "teenager" phase, where you express your feelings without remorse, refuse to listen to anyone, and assume that the no one in the world older or younger than you "could possibly understand" your complicated and probably vain self. I'll just say that, if I had known how unbearable I was to other people, I would've drastically changed my demeanor during those years. But alas, I didn't know, and had to grow out of it naturally. Now I see it all around me, in every forum, every blog, every thing that even has a slight form of discussion feature. Some even disguise themselves with fancy words now since Microsoft has that wonderful thesaurus feature. Don't be fooled, however, because the content of their death poetry is still the same drivel. I wish they would leave. Or mature a bit. But then a new generation would follow them. Why do they get attention, anyway? They should be buried under the wonderful work of the good kids who pay attention in school and enjoy learning. Those with the creative edge to step outside the normal box and rise above the others, so much as to be inspired by great writers and philosophers, should be in the lime light. But they are so few, and their works so scarce, likely due to their hard work and multiple revisions.

Also, no matter who you are, conformity is a part of life and there is no absolute way to be a complete non-conformist. Humans are built similarly for a reason, and just because you're unique doesn't mean you're useful to society. Just realize that in order to prosper in a world like this, you must find your niche and work well within it.

It's way past my bed time and I'm sure that for a while there I wasn't making much sense. I'm not done with this, however, as there will be a part 2 someday.
02 July 2008 @ 11:47 pm
I'm not someone who takes life so seriously that I feel that I can't waste any time accomplishing my goals. Many people assume that because I go at my own pace about certain things, I'm lazy or dumb or just don't care about the world. Even I acknowledge that my potential is much higher than my output, but what price would I have to pay to utilize my potential? I think if I were to change the way I approach my goals, I would lose a part of myself that is just fundamentally me. Even my hobbies I tend to enjoy sparingly and at my own sporadic pace. I do realize that the world does not conform to me, but does that mean I must conform to the world? Can't I live alongside the world without falling too far behind but only catching up when I feel it's necessary? I get my work done on time, I don't leave things until it's too late, and I do what I'm asked even if it's not right away. The amount of work I put into something depends on how much care I have for it, not whether or not I do it a week before or the night before. It shouldn't matter, as I take responsibility for the tasks I'm given, which is better than a lot of people.

I used to play Ragnarok Online, but I haven't lately. I never officially "quit," but over time I started playing less and less, due both to time constraints and emotional stresses surrounding the game. I left on a good note, with lots of friends in a guild that made me feel like a part of a large dysfunctional family, which was always fun. I just can't find much keeping me tied to the game, and I usually don't feel like using my time on it. I also refuse to ask others to pay for my account anymore, which was something I enjoyed throughout my entire time playing. I can't accept it anymore, because it not only takes away a bit of my independence, but it also makes me feel bad since I never have much (if anything) to offer in return.

Speaking of which, I happen to be one of those people who, when money is needed, seems to find it in all sorts of ways. When I was struggling to figure out how to pay for college, I was offered a nice tuition-paying scholarship and a large amount of financial aid from the government. It pretty much eliminated the need for student loans, which I was not looking forward to paying off. Any other monetary needs I get from my parents, who don't make very much money but offer enough to us children to get by well in college. My mother was offered her old job back to help with the money situation, which I think we were all grateful for. That being said I've never had the luxury of having an abundance of money to spend on things. I was never able to upgrade my technology when I felt it needed it, or buy those expensive consoles I lust over so often, but when I really needed money for my future or other things, it seemed to find its way to me. I'm not as lucky as Dustin, though, who seems to find money for all the things he wants, despite the fact that he has no job and really doesn't work enough around the house to warrant such. He just has really nice relatives. He also received a better scholarship than I, though it's because he worked harder in high school than I allowed myself to.

Well, after that wall of text, I'm not sure where to go from here. I suppose it bears mentioning that I've been slightly addicted to streaming Japanese TV recently, via My Japanese is elementary at best, but it's just fun to watch sometimes, especially the old anime I used to watch when I was younger. There's also a chat function (that is sadly not working for me at the moment) where you can talk with other viewers or request a channel change, which is usually pretty fun in itself.

Code Geass is difficult for me to tolerate anymore, since the plot seems to go nowhere and just keeps getting more and more complicated before advancing/tying up the ends it left loose weeks ago. Maybe it would be best if I just waited until this season was over, and watched them all at once (I'll probably end up doing that anyway, just to make sense of all the subtle hints they give). However, I'm interested enough in the series to keep going on, and it does help that my boyfriend enjoys the show, too. Now if only they'd get on that Haruhi season 2...

Well, I'm going to end this night like I've ended the last few: playing Crisis Core until I go to sleep.
23 June 2008 @ 06:43 pm
I went to Grapevine Mills mall last Saturday, which is like the biggest mall in the NTX area as far as I know. It wasn't the most interesting experience, but it was fun to walk around and look at stuff. I went with Dustin and his family, since my family never wants to go anywhere fun like that. I didn't spend too much, but I didn't find too much that I really wanted either. There was this cute little Asian store we found, though, and I did buy one little thing...


Dustin also bought me a little something...


Afterwards I was really, really sleepy, since I had been up since like 7 that morning, so naturally I was in bed by 11:30. Good thing too, since I had to get up at 7 again the following morning for church.

Sunday is universal Geass day, where all fans watch Code Geass and discuss with others in some form or another. Yesterday was different, in that people were discussing the episode 12 preview rather than episode 11 which aired. For good reason, too, as there were some really puzzling images. The way 11 ended made me believe that it would be another school shenanigans episode, which bugs me because Kallen is still a prisoner of war and is now in the hands of the Britannians. And if Lelouch is at school, how could he possibly rescue her? It's kind of funny, though, how Lelouch has all these hot girls around him, feels nothing for them, and plays with them like objects. Poor Shirley got kissed by who she thought was Lelouch, and it kind of messed with her feelings (not that I care about her, I'm all about C.C. or Kallen), and Lelouch probably won't even care. Anyway, the ending preview was really odd looking, with double Lelouch wearing what looked like blue asshats (srsly). There was also a scene with Lelouch jumping in a pose that reminded me highly of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. All of it makes me think that the next episode will be really entertaining, even if they decide not to rescue Kallen yet.

I want to play video games. But I can't bring myself to start (or finish) some lengthy console game, and the only handhelds I have right now I don't really feel the need to play. I really want to play The World Ends With You or Crisis Core, but I have to wait for Dustin to finish them first so I can borrow them.

Anyway, I'm going to help Dustin clean out his dresser tomorrow, so that should be fun. For now it's time to watch some old anime for kicks.
13 June 2008 @ 11:13 pm
...was really boring. Well, it was mostly my fault for not doing anything, but I was craving an outing of some kind. I wish I had a group of really close friends I could just call and hang out with on a whim. I did go to the library with my brother and picked up a few sewing books (as I've been doing lately, though the only thing I've sewn is an apron for my Cooking Mama costume). I also checked out a history sorta book on China, since I'm supposed to be learning the language next semester. China was actually my first love, as I've been drawn to its writing since as long I can remember. I only came to be fascinated with Japan when I found out about anime, and my odd interests started to all make sense. Even now, I'm still not sure why I like it so much, but I think that's true to many things about people. It's kind of like asking why a person has a certain fetish--it's probably the hardest thing to explain, but it feels natural so it must be right.

I was surprised to find a check in the mail for me today. Apparently I got a good portion of my security deposit back, which was a surprise considering I hadn't heard from them and just assumed they took my whole $100. I was actually left with about $71, which will undoubtedly go to furnishing my new apartment next semester. It's harder to furnish a living room when there's only two people contributing, but it's easier to assess what we need and decorate. I really loved my roommates last year, but the living room was usually a mess or occupied by their friends, so I never felt like I could use it as much as I would've liked. Since it will be just us two next semester, I'll probably feel more free.

I reached my goal on Live Search Club, but they took down the prize I wanted. I'm thinking they're just out of stock at the moment, so I'm holding on to my tickets. Maybe they'll add something better, who knows.

I'm really in between hobbies right now, where nothing seems particularly appealing. I think I'm leaning more towards video games at the moment, which is probably for the best since I've got three unfinished DS games waiting for me (Pokemon Diamond, Pokemon Emerald, and Zelda: Phantom Hourglass) and two unfinished RPGs that I temporarily gave up on due to lack of interest (FFXII and Valkyrie Profile 2). However, I don't know how well these can hold my attention anymore, especially when I've felt so driven to be productive these past few weeks. Maybe if I clean up my room I'll feel better about spending more time in here.

Well, it's felt like a really long day, so I should at least rest my eyes.
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Super Smash Bros Brawl Soundtrack, all day long
10 June 2008 @ 04:02 pm
Yesterday I watched ep. 8 and 9 of Code Geass R2, and I want more. =( Usually, when I'm watching a series, most of the episodes are already available and I just download them until I finish. I don't like waiting a week or more to know what happens next, but I guess it can't be helped. I really hope it doesn't turn into one of those Shonen series like Naruto or DBZ where they pad the story until it hardly makes sense anymore, and end up with a billion episodes and 843972 seasons. The longest series to date that has kept my attention was the 76 episodes of Marmalade Boy, and that's only because I had read the manga beforehand and really enjoyed the characters, even though the animation was lacking and the story was branched off of the original since the manga couldn't keep up. I was probably in a very small percentage of people at A-kon that had never seen Bleach, Naruto, DBZ, or many of the other Adult Swim shows people seem to enjoy so much. Ah well, it's probably for the best. The hardcore fans of such series tend to annoy me, anyway.

This scene made me lol:

My family and I have been playing Live Search Club quite a lot this month, and it's actually paying off. For those not familiar with it, please don't take this as an advertisement, as I don't really get any perks for inviting people.

Microsoft has this new search tool that's trying to compete with the other search tools (Yahoo, Google, etc.) so they developed this site (see sidebar for link) to promote it. Basically, you play games that are powered by Live Search, you get tickets, and use said tickets to win prizes. It's not all crap either, as if you save up enough tickets you can get a Zune, Rock Band (for the 360), or a Standing Mixer. Some of the cheaper stuff is neat, too. You don't even have to pay for shipping on your prizes, as it's all funded by Microsoft. It's kind of genius really, since they get more hits on their search engine this way(no one would use it otherwise). Games usually give you about 3-25 tickets depending on difficulty, and they're usually word-based (like Flexicon, the mini crossword puzzle, or Seekadoo, the word search game). I personally have over 18,000 tickets at this point, and I'm saving up for a Zune. My parents have about 8,000 and are saving for the standing mixer, and my brother just got enough for his wireless desktop last night. If you've got lots of time on your hands and are looking for free crap, it beats taking surveys by a mile.

Anyway, I'm off to help my mom with the enchiladas we're having tonight.
08 June 2008 @ 07:02 pm
As you may or may not realize, I've made a few changes around here... Nothing major, just making it a bit more customized than it was. I need a creativity spurt I think, everything I come up with is just "meh" and I'm not very excited about anything. I guess I spent too much time on my CG for my friend Sachi. She doesn't know I'm working on it right now, as I've been reluctant to tell her until I have solid progress. Well, I'm getting there.


I really dislike doing the lineart. I want to color, but I refuse to even start until I'm at least 95% done with the lines. I'm experimenting with perspective this time around, and I think it's turning out alright. I need to get better/quicker at linework, but it's really hard when my tablet is so small. I also have the problem of really shaky lines if I work too zoomed-out, which I'm not sure whether or not it's my fault. I'm better with pen and paper, I think.

I've been watching a series called Code Geass recently. The one on Adult Swim is really far behind, since the fansubs are already on the second season. I won't go into too much detail, but I'll say that if you liked Death Note, you'll probably like this. I like it better as it isn't just a "who's cock is bigger" kind of fight, and there's more to the actual story. It's kind of like... If you even remotely like anime, you're bound to like this. It gets a little involved, but it's fast-paced and well balanced.

Well, the new episode is done downloading, so I'm off to watch it.
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Rie Fu - Life is Like a Boat
08 June 2008 @ 12:26 am
Some people may be surprised to see me actually posting on here. Maybe not, I'm not sure I even have any friends left on here. It has been what, 2 years? Maybe not that long, but it feels even longer than that. I was going through my old entries as I was deleting them one by one, and I kept thinking to myself how immature I was back then. Do you remember thinking as a teenager that you knew everything you needed to know, and you were done growing? Yeah, what a fucking lie I told myself back then. I really couldn't handle having those old posts on my record anymore, and though I know I can't exactly erase the past, I can erase traces of it on here as I try to start over. I have a problem with looking back; I get embarrassed easily when I think about how I acted when I was more immature. I still have room to mature, and I know I won't feel the same way about everything in the years to come, but I want to chronicle parts of my life with no regrets this time around.

Some may wonder why I'm writing a public journal at all, and to be truthful I don't really know myself. While I am uncertain on who, if anyone, will read this, I feel that it may be a bit more helpful in the long run if I write this way. I am more inclined to use proper grammar and explain things in a clear and concise manner if I know I have an audience, and perhaps it may even encourage me to write updates more often.

I will refrain from explaining my past up until this point, but instead will summarize the state of my life as of right now.

I'm a sophomore at the University of Texas at Dallas, currently in my summer vacation after a slightly rough first year. I'm on a scholarship plan that pays for my tuition and offers subsidized housing, provided I keep my GPA above 3.25. I'm majoring in Arts and Technology, hoping to pursue a career in specialized animation, illustration, advertising, or general artist on a development team. I'm unemployed but looking for a local summer job to help pay for my rent next semester.

I have a steady boyfriend of nine months who was my best friend for six years prior. We go to college together and will share a two-bedroom apartment in the fall. His name is Dustin and he is my first non-long-distance boyfriend in nearly 8 years.

I have many hobbies to pursue in my spare time, though I am a beginner in most of them. I'm learning to sew, hoping to become a decent cosplayer someday. I also make models out of paper in the art known as papercraft, though I haven't done anything too complex yet. I also draw quite frequently, yet everything I've drawn since my anatomy class last semester has been practice, so my portfolio is empty. I like to work in Photoshop, though I would also like to learn Painter. I also like to sing, though I don't find myself good enough to pursue a career in it. It's just something I do for fun. I also play video games, write, read, and go out with my friends. It sounds like a lot, but I cycle through my hobbies rather than try to do them all at once. It more or less ensures that I don't end up bored on long summer days, which I dread more than anything.

My current short term, non-educational goals include learning to drive and learning to cook. I realize I should know how to drive by now, but my older brother needs the practice more than I do since he's already out of school and is still living at home. I'm third in line to get a car in my family, so I'm not holding my breath. My town doesn't have public transportation, so it's hard to get around without a car. Therefore, I can't get a job to pay for a car, which I need to get a job.

I'm realizing a bit too late how stiff and composed this post is sounding. Be rest assured that not all the posts I make will sound like this, since I suppose it's just the mood I'm in. I'll also be taking pictures to make the updates a bit more interesting. It's past my bedtime now, so until next time, good night!